im in college

I often forget to shake well

or stop quickly enough. well, not often, just today, and just once. I suppose that's all it takes though.

When I was standing next to my smoking car on the side of Manchester, I was thinking about all of the people that didnt get in a car accident today. I knew some of you, the people who drove past. Some woman with a child in the front seat gawked and I waved at the child. You're lucky. Or perhaps I'm gravely unlucky.

I shouldn't say that. My mom reminds me continually that we will go car shopping and not casket shopping. Tanya reminded me to think of those without legs. But to me, no car is like no legs.

I, my friends, am now an amputee.

Talk about the worst sitaution ever

Back in the saddle again

I miss germany. i hate to say it, but i really do. i miss how life is there, i miss riding my bike and i miss getting that fantastic icecream. I wonder if I miss it becuase i had two weeks of good food, shopping and partying, or becuase life is just a little different there. I wonder if Id like it as much if i had to actually keep going to school there or if I had to hold up a job. I spent 10 or 12 Euro on dinner a few nights a week, and in America I would never have the money to do that. I hope that my perception of germany wasnt too glossed over by the fact that it was vacation town for me. i miss the people though. i miss babs and her mom and the breakfast she made me every morning. i miss people calling me "elly" and asking me to say "bitch" becuase i can do it like they cant. i miss people walking up to me and saying "you're the Ami with the shorts!" becuase im the only person in haren to ever wear cut offs. i miss schuetzenfest... and i miss drinking. i miss being able to have a V+ after dinner. I miss Fanta Rot. I miss Mezzo Mix and Shokocrossiant and unlimited chocolate candy. I miss Brotchen. And Doener.

but hey, i have a pool and a car. and ac.

I'm stressing out

and I want to cry.